The Confession / He Put A New Song In My Mouth, A Hymn Of Praise To Our God (Psa 40:2-3)

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The Confession

 

/ He Put A  New Song

In My Mouth, A Hymn Of

Praise To Our God 
(Psa 40:2-3)

 

 

/ By Priscilla

 

17 Years have passed

since I shared my life with Q.T.

whenever I was sad or happy.

 

 

My diary I started to keep

in 4th grade in my primary school,

nowadays became my letters,

new songs and dfferings of

flowers to my Lord.

 

 

The inspiration and revelation

given to me through ‘Q.T.’

is a also part of piety disciplines

to acknowledge the lord -Being

 

 

and made me who I am

and also open the door to

watch and insight my mind. 

 

 

I really thanks the lord

for allowing me to praise

the rivers flow among

barren hills,

 

 

and turn the desert into

pools  of water in my life.

 

 

When I was ten,

my father passed away

and at that time I felt

deserted and lonesome,

 

 

so I welcomed my friend

suggestion to go to church

and met Jesus who gave

me peace,

 

 

and God became

a real Father who saved me

from the hopeless slough.

 

 

After that I had been trained

to worship the God by the

creeds of Presbyterian church.

 

 

But I was brought up

in non christian family

and my mother

worshipped the Idol.

 

 

I our country,

some people believe

they can not serve two

religions in one family,

 

 

because they afraid their

different religion make

them conflict each other.

 

 

So my mother asked me

not to go to church and I had

to listen to her as an eldest

daughter for my family. 

 

 

In fact, I was not a strong

believer even though I was

attending the misson school.

 

 

So I felt the God after confessing

“I’m coming back to the Lord!”

 

 

It was terrible life

after leaving the Lord,

 

 

and wandered about

the world like a lost lamb

nearly for 10 years.

 

 

Of course I believed in God

and accompanied him

 

 

but I didn’t experienced

Holy-Spirit itself and always

felt the emptiness of life.

 

 

After graduating university,

I was introduced to my

husband through meeting

when I was a teacher.

 

 

At that time my mother-in-law 

had been sick for many years

(from cursed by ancestors).

 

 

Although I didn’t return

to God and wandered

repeatedly, 

 

 

but I felt pity of her

circumstances as 

a christian,

 

 

so I decided to marry

my husband to look

after his parents.

 

 

When I looked back

40years old my married life.

 

 

I could realize the

providence of God that

made me disciple by

coming back to

 

 

Jesus Christ and rely on

through all my adversity. 

 

 

After married, I had to resign

from my job to care for my sick

mother-in-law suffering

all day long

 

 

and my father-in-law

who was also looking

after her, that made me

 

 

feel tired out both mentally

and physically I couldn’t

have a rest at all.

 

 

My husband (Ps Paul)

had he responsibility

of supporting all  family

 

 

and had to return home terribly

exhausted from hard working

until midnight

 

 

and even

couldn’t find time

talk each other. 

 

 

The stillness, as if the

power of evil oppressed me,

the mother-in-law suffering

from disease

 

 

and the loneliness as

of waiting for the death,

 

 

I felt the weakness of

human-being through

those circumstances,

 

 

and kept diary ever night

with lamenting to hope

of finding my identity, that 

made me reunite with god

 

 

and increased my ‘Q.T.’

praying silently to feel my soul

brighten with the light of the

God, just 3years after marriage.

 

 

I was grateful to the Lord

giving me like lost child priceless

love not pointing out my faults

and confessed never to

leave him again.  

 

 

The Lord healed me like

the woman who had suffered

from severe bleeding for 

12 years cured by holding

Jesus’ cloths,

 

 

and the woman born in region

of Phoenic in Syria begging

Jesus to drive the demon

out of her daughter. 

 

 

Since 1984 I have been

ready to meditate and apply

creeds to everyday life through

‘Q.T.’ with all my hearts 

 

 

and keep

recoding my ideas in my

old notebooks until now. 

 

 

I confess the joy is so priceless,

that I could find my progress

of belief in my old letters

written to the God

 

 

and marks covered with joy

of tears when I go through ‘Q.T.”

 

 

I believe God made me

be patient even in intolerable

circumstances,

 

 

and Holy-Sprit controlled

deep in my life and

he trained me to fulfill

piety life

 

 

and experience

the existence of God. I really

appreciate having a great joy

in my soul sharing all 

my lifetime with God

 

 

and he chose me as a tool

 for guiding all my family

in front of Jesus and

became christians.

 

 

Firstly, mother-in-law

received God as a Saviour 

when she was ill in bed,

 

 

and at last all family

believed in God one

by one.

 

After mother -in -law went

to the heaven after

13years suffering from disease,

 

 

Holy-Sprit leads my family to

become my husband a pastor

(serve Ephaphatha church),

 

 

his younger brother open

his church in other country,

as a pastor.

 

 

And his elder sister and

brother-in-law and their

children were serving

the church

 

 

as helpers, as a elder and

deacon and workers. 

 

 

What a great plan and bless

for my family through me

like a lost lamb.

 

 

Since I was young, lord

guide me to know him

 

 

and teach the secret how to

live through ‘Q.T.’ this amazing

blessing given to me was

 

 

like dew in Mt. Hermon

and let me reach the ocean

filled with grace of the God. 

 

 

I’m very much impresses

by amazing plan by the God,

I will give my glory to the Lord r

eciting the psalms 40:2-3 

 

 

“He lifted me out of

the slimy pit, out of

the mud and mire;

 

 

he set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm

place to stand.

 

 

He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.

 

 

Many will see and fear

and put their trust

in the LORD.”

(Isa 40:2-3)

 

 

Halleluyah

 

-Amen

 

 

 

2020/05/11

 

 

/ By Priscilla